#RamadhanReflections "When is it enough..."
This week the question was posed to me
"But what if you're doing too much, what if Allah doesn't even require all these other things, and we're stressing ourselves for no reason, when we may have already attained Jannah?"
Such a genuine question, and I'm sure at some point we've all felt "ah ah I'm doing too much", it's that problem of feeling "Mozlem" enough.
The questioned spurred a deep conversation where I'm sure all of us came back feeling motivated to learn more about our deen. My response was...
"when you're the smartest in a room, leave that room".
Its very easy to feel satisfied with what we're doing, especially when comparing ourselves to others. However as merciful as Allah is, we should also have fear of his wrath, we should fear becoming complacent.
I personally am one of those people who is motivated by Allahs mercy, I feel as though He's doing too much for me, who barely does anything in return. Some people are motivated out of fear of his wrath, to be honest, when reading some of the Ayahs about the grave and Day of Judgement (DoJ) as am I.
Thus the importance of dhikr, and seeking knowledge. If we constantly remind ourselves of Allah, even if the whole world prays only 5 times a day, we should still be filled with an urge to do more, to stand in the night and offer extra salah.
Yes, it's easier said than done, but I've come to the realisation that enough will never be enough on this my path to ihsaan. Though from the bottom it may seem daunting, but trust me, I know when Allah becomes my eyes which I see with, my feet which I walk with and my mouth which I talk with, when Allah covers me with His Nur from above, from below, infront and behind, it'll all be worth it.
I'll be crip walking like "started from the bottom now we heree"
If success in this life is in the hands of Allah, then what am I waiting for? Y'all already know i'm a fatty, I always be trying to eat my cake and have it. I stay praying for success in this life and the next, plus Allah already gave me the recipe, so guess who's outchea baking? #DunKnow
Our convo served as a reminder for me, sort of like glasses for my ever clearing vision. It left me in a state of reflection, reaffirming my beliefs, and my goals.
Then Tahajjud on the 21st night shook me subhanAllah, I felt overwhelmed in blessings, I felt like Allah was saying "Nimz, its okay, I gotchu, you're on the right path, have a taste of my ni'mah".
See what I did there lol